As you get older, you start to realize the impact that place has had and continues to have on your life. Your hometown starts to change from a place you're trying to outgrow to a place that you save all your pennies to visit, even if it's just for a weekend. You start to seek out special places to call your own, places that allow you to escape from the roar of the city or expose you to the hustle and bustle. You find yourself avoiding the restaurant that you and your last heartbreak used to frequent like the plague. Why do places have such an incredible impact on us? Perhaps it's because place acts as a capsule for our memories, a chest that, when cracked, reveals the gems of time, a wardrobe that opens its doors to the foreign land of our past.
Place has the ability to invoke joy, sorrow, laughter and uncertainty simply by existing. It allows us to experience our memories by providing a physical context within which those memories can be relived. The following statements are responses from two of my dear friends concerning this idea.
Think about your most vivid memory... what is the relationship between that event and the place that it occurred?
One of my most heart wrenching memories would be the Sunday my dad left. He and my mother were just holding hands and singing in church, we came home and ate lunch, then he came into the living room with a bag in his hand and no wedding ring on, my mom was crying and holding onto his feet. I simply asked, "Dad where are you going?" and he replied, "I'm leaving." Then I didn't see him for three months. It was as if the wind was knocked out of me and my heart was ripped out. It blindsided me.
Is there a place that always invokes a specific memory when you see a picture of it or revisit it?
My family beach house in St. Simons. I have so many memories with my wonderful family at this house. My mom was actually brought home from the hospital to that house, so it has been in the family for years. I was extremely close to my grandparents and have amazing memories with them from that island. I have not revisited the island since I lost them both this year.
Are there certain places you avoid because you associate them with negative memories?
It took me a month, and going with someone else, before I went to the grocery store that my ex-boyfriend and I used to go to. I don't go to that section of town nearly as often anymore, partly because I don't want to run into him and partly because it makes me sad that I can't walk in the evenings down those streets with him anymore. However, as much as I avoid those spots, I don't regret having those memories and experiences. It can just be painful to relive them when I feel like I've lost sharing it with someone that I loved. I've learned though, that we don't always have to avoid those spots. I hate this answer as much now as I did last year when others told me, but time and having new experiences with others in the same places help. Another interesting thought is that I actually avoid some places that have wonderful memories. For example, I've only drove past my college apartment complex twice since I moved out. The first time I cried, the second I was getting furniture. I really don't like to go there because again, it reminds me of what I don't have anymore even though the memories are wonderful!
Where do you go when you want to reminisce or think about the past?
I feel energized when I'm standing at the ocean with sand between my toes watching the waves roll in. I think one of my most favorite places in the world is Clarke Beach because of the beauty and memories I have there starting such a long time ago. It's like being in a different world. It doesn't matter who I'm there with, either friends, my mom, or even by myself, I always feel like I escape, can stand in front of vastness of God's creation and rest. I can't think of a time I've ever left the beach feeling stressed or actually wanted to leave. In fact, lately I've felt so drained by work and constantly being in a new place that yesterday I started tearing up at my desk at the thought of going to the ocean.
These places - a living room, a grocery store, a family vacation spot and the edge of the ocean - continue to have an impact on these women's lives because of the memories that were made there. It is because of this that these places will forever be set apart in their stories.
What are the places that you have set apart?